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I’m in a really bad state right now and I feel like I can’t breathe or talk or eat and I just want to stop being so disgusting and I want to stop hurting everyone I care about and I just want to stop.

I started thinking that I was good. That I was doing good things. That things were working out for me. That things were looking up. And I got stuck in that thinking. I forgot that that doesn’t happen to me. I forgot to brace myself for the massive kick in the face that life always seems to give me when I’m doing good. And now that it’s hit, I don’t have the fight in me anymore. I don’t have that strength anymore.

I keep trying to tell myself that it’s just one more fight. That I’ve won and conquered so many things that I never thought I would and that I can win and conquer this one too but I just don’t believe that anymore. I don’t believe that it’s just one more fight. It’s like every time I get situated and content with my life, another thing kicks me down and I have to keep fighting and I don’t want to. I’m so tired of having to constantly claw and bite and kick and scream for my right to just be happy. I’m not that strong. I’m not some story that ends with explosions of motivation and courage. I’m a real person who has been kicked down too many times and there is no beauty in this pain. There is no cryptic message of strength and courage. There is only me and I’m weak. 

gavriloprincep:

your-little-bonsai-tree:

Okay, so I’ve been seeing a lot of posts about bisexuality meaning you’re attracted to two or more gender identities and I just wanted to figure this out.

"Bi" is the root word meaning "Two" or "Twice". Like "Bimonthly" and "Bilingual".

"Pan" is the root word meaning "All". Like "Pandemic" and…

i’ll give it a go. i think your problem is that you’re thinking of the word bisexual in the context of the word pansexual which actually came much later. you should be thinking of the word bisexual in the context of the words which came before i.e. homosexual and heterosexual.

so bisexual does not refer to genders it refers to sexual orientation. bisexual = two sexualities = homosexual (homo: same) and heterosexual (hetero: different) = attraction to genders the same and different from oneself = attraction to two or more genders.

does that make sense?

it’s important to remember that the word bisexual had nothing to do with sexuality or gender when it was coined and that it was straight people who gave it to us and that at the time they didn’t know there were more than two genders. but above all the most important thing to remember is that it’s bisexuals who get to define the word.

tl:dr

the bi refers to direction/orientation not number of genders

That does make sense. Thanks for the help.

Okay, so I’ve been seeing a lot of posts about bisexuality meaning you’re attracted to two or more gender identities and I just wanted to figure this out.

"Bi" is the root word meaning "Two" or "Twice". Like "Bimonthly" and "Bilingual".

"Pan" is the root word meaning "All". Like "Pandemic" and "Panacea".

So wouldn’t it make sense for bisexual to mean you’re attracted to two of the many gender identities while pansexual means you’re attracted to all gender identities?

Can someone explain this a little more to me? I want to understand this a bit more and in no way am I trying to dismiss a sexuality. I just need a little explanation?

The great thing about anonymous love in ask boxes is that it’s not about getting recognition for the good things you say. It’s not about them thinking you’re a good person to say those things. In fact, anonymous love takes that completely off the table. It’s about saying nice things because it’s a nice thing to do. You get the chance to remind people that there are people out there that just want to make others happy regardless of whether they get credit for it or not.

It’s completely selfless and beautiful and just wow. There are really good people out there.

What frustrates me the most about days like today is the fact that I know normal people would like to watch the fireworks and spend time outside and celebrate and I just can’t. I can’t even stand outside for more than twenty minutes without hyperventilating. And I feel so useless.

Anna needs to go to bed.

Goodnight all~

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dirty liar
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were better
than they seemed."
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Apologize for mistakes. Apologize for unintentionally hurting someone — profusely. But don’t apologize for being who you are.

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