Anna needs to go to bed.
You will always be too much of something for someone: too big, too loud, too soft, too edgy. If you round out your edges, you lose your edge.
Apologize for mistakes. Apologize for unintentionally hurting someone — profusely. But don’t apologize for being who you are."
A lot of things have happened in the past month.
Firstly, I graduated! So I’m done, done, done, done with high school. I’ve enrolled at the local college to start in the Fall and I’m looking into pursuing a major in social work with an emphasis in psychology but I’m honestly just not sure yet. I’m probably gonna go to the local college for my general classes and use that time to look into my options.
I’ve changed therapists because I didn’t feel like I was getting the service that I needed from my previous one so I’m meeting with my new one on the 11th this month.
There are still problems with my sleeping that I’m frustrated about but so far, I haven’t really slept through any important things so I figure my body just really needs the sleep since I’m so busy all the time.
Something that I’m really worried about lately (the past four or five weeks) is my memory. I keep forgetting what I’ve done throughout the day and I can’t sequence my activities in my mind. Like if I go shopping, have a meeting, then go for a run, I think that I went for the run, shopped and then had the meeting or something like that. And when I finally do remember, it feels like it was a different time or day. I wouldn’t be so worried if it wasn’t happening that same night. I can’t remember most of my day’s activities by the time I get home. I make it a habit to write down my activities as soon as I finish them but when I go back over them at night I don’t feel like I did those things that day. Everything memory-wise feels so far away.
I’m spending the night at my mom’s on Friday so I’m excited and nervous about that. More excited than nervous but still definitely nervous.
Other than all of that, things are going really well. My case worker has switched our meeting times to the afternoon and since then, we’ve had really great case management meetings. Today, I had a team meeting with all of the staff from my Independent Living Program and my BST worker and that went really well. We talked about my progress and all that good stuff.
I’ve been keeping busy to avoid feeling the things that I need to feel but I’ve had a little extra down time so now I’m starting to feel them and I don’t really like it. I know that it’s something that’s needed but I don’t like it. It’s just constant reminders of the things that I want to get away from.
Anywhooo~ Things are going pretty okay for me. I’m getting by. Thank you all for sticking with me through all of this, it means the world to me. I hope you all are doing fantastic.